Trauma was Noctica's fourth song posted on YouTube, and the second one from the Dysphoria EP. It is just phenomenal; I really love the lyrics. Like, all of them. First of all, "round and round we go" is just, "yes". I think anyone who has experienced trauma knows that feeling of, "wasn't I just here," when life feels like a fucking gloomy-go-round. Some other really great lines are "Hostage state of mind", "These two letters feel like I’m face to face with death (N.O)", "I might never break but you’ll know I’ll bend", and "Take another second, just learn another lesson, depression’s a chemical based obsession formed inside of this aggression". Trauma, for better or worse, is a song many will find very understandable.
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| I really love this moment at 2:21 in the official music video; the way she brings the whole thing together: the lyrics, music, vocal performance, visual performance, and video editing. I also love how she looks so mischievous at the last second. |
So, I wasn't really aware of how far gone I was at this point. Afterlife and Angels were both great songs but hadn't hit me the way Savior did. But Trauma was 10/10, no notes, and you should be excited about a song like that, right? Totally normal. Fine. I'm fine. Everything's fine.
The black around my eyes is leaking red
Maybe that’s a sign?
The ghosts of past reside inside my head
Hostage state of mind
Cos I’m drowning fires out with oxygen
And I’m choking out as I’m losing breath
These two letters feel like I’m face to face with death (N.O)
No consent but you’ll just pretend
I might never break but you’ll know I’ll bend
And I’m doomed to repeat every second of this
Again and again and again and again
Round and round we go
My mind is spinning so
I will never no
How much longer I can take this I’m
Tired of saying no
And I’ve given in so now
Round and round we go
Break me apart
Vow you’ll never again
As I’m put back together
Brainwash away my sins
At first I was just lost but now I have been found
In a cage made of empathy, sense of self, bound
Well it’s cold in this war
Break the ice with my fall
All this blood in the water’s
Just the sign I’m looking for uh
I’ve been desperate just to find a way out
But the best I can do is survive in the fallout
Take another second, just learn another lesson, depression’s
a chemical based obsession formed inside of this aggression
Forcing my hand
Was a part of the plan
Move the line in the sand
Turn each can’t to a can
I’m going in circles
identity’s broken
this psyops the work of no god or a man
Trying to find a sense of peace in the violence
But the trauma echoes just as loud in the silence
My mind’s stuck on repeat with no end
Reliving the death of myself over and over again
Round and round we go
My mind is spinning so
I will never no
How much longer I can take this I’m
Tired of saying no
And I’ve given in so now
Round and round we go
Round and round we go
Where this stops nobody knows
Round and round we go
This stops when I say no!
Round and round we go
Round and round we go
